Due to drama with friends who can't controll their anger



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Overall I had a great time.  Here is what I did.

Wednesday-Arrived around 2 AM.  very tired.  Woke up at 10 AM the next day.

Thursday- Went to the water park til 3 or 4ish.  Coudn't ride the big slides that required more than two people.  Went to dress as Katara instead and went to convention center for awhile.  Not much going on.  Just checked in for cosplay.

Friday-Woke up early to see Gundam panel because Brad Swaile is one of the few dub actors I like.  Went to dealers room and mostly hung out.  Went to subculture cosplay panel but had to leave early due to since I was in the fashion show. *boo*  Fashion show was fun and okay but some people don't need to be onstage.  Especially creepy old ladies.  I'm probably going to get yelled at for saying that.  Didn't see much of anyone (were were you people!)

Saturday-Didn't wake up as early because not much.  Went back to dealers room.  Run around in the hallways more.  I didn't run into anyone I know til later in the evening (where were you guys.  I was mostly alone at the con! :()  I did get judged for Selphie but won nothing.  Probably because I just plain suck at sewing (XD) or should have made a more complicated outfit and Oshi asked me if I lined it.  I feel terrible for saying no and it probably effected me a lot.  (but I have no friggin clue how to line fabric at all,  does anyone know how?  It would help me in the future)  I still wish I would know how to improve the outfit but I don't think there is cosplay feedback like at Ohayo.
The masquerade was okay but some people don't need to be on the stage for so long.  That Nurse Joy drove me insane as well as some others.  (probably going to get hit in the head for saying that)  Not mad about not winning, just frusterated over how people get by with these things.

Ran into  Vic tards and I was very tired and wanted to change.  They kept wanting to talk to me but I wanted to go to whoese line (and i only got to go for like 40 minutes.)  Gave them my buisness card so they would shut the hell up (and my dad wanted me to be friends with them, I'm sorry but I cannot stand people who are so obsessed with Vic).  The mom was especially annoying and kept telling me on Sunday when I met her about how she had a conversation with Jeff Nimoy at ACEN about making love to him on a stranded island naked.  God people need to be shot.  I tried to be nice to them but I should have just yelled at them and left.

Sunday-Other than that annoying lady and her child I had to deal with at the water park and while I was packing, everything was fine.

Overall grade 8/10

Pictures coming soon.





Ok, now for some important news for fans of a certain show-

I heard this from a popular Youtube account.  Right now, FUNimation is holding a poll of what animes you would like to see them work on next.  I'm usually not that crazy over dubs but when I saw the words "re dub of Sailor Moon"  I flipped out.  That means no crappy dic dub and a fairly decent one (that is as long as Vic doesn't get casted)  But it also means dvd with subs so that means I can delete my crappy sub versions off my computer.  So for the love of god,  VOTE FOR IT SO I DON'T HAVE TO CONTINUE WATCHING CHINESE FANSUBS WITH HORRIBLE ENGRISH!!!  Plus its a good cause.  Downloading takes up space too.

Here is the link

http://blog.funimation.com/2009/05/we-need-your-input/

Sorry for being so bitchy but some people drive me bonkers.

I was completing SMB3 and almost ready to beat it then the power went screwy.  I lost all the save point of the game.  WTF WHY DID THIS HAD TO HAPPEN!   SKYWORLD WAS FRIGGIN HARD.

Now I don't have a game to start.  I'll probably restart Twilight Princess because I'm lost some pieces of heart and I don't know which ones (still havent beaten it yet), saw my friend beat the whole thing of MGS4 so I know what happens *played the other ones* but I have trouble getting the south american rebel disquie is what is keeping me from beating the game.  I keep killing everyone when I try to get it. :(

Why do my consoles hate me so much!

Stolen from lucid dr34ming's account

Name your 10-15 absolutely favorite couples (het/slash/canon/fanon) and ask people to see what trends they notice about your couples. Try to pick different fandoms

1. Bulma/Yamcha (hate Vegeta/Bulma, they never should have been toghether in the first place!)
2.Solid Snake/Meryl Silverburgh
3. Naked Snake/Eva
4. Goku/Chichi
5. Vash/Meryl Strife
6.Nicolas D.Wolfwood/Milly Thompson
7.Spike/Julia
8. Sakura/Shaoran
9. Link/Zelda (Ocarina of time version mostly)
10. Kamui/Fuuma
11. Link/Saria
12. Link/Malon (however you spell her name)
13. Mario/Peach
14. Luigi/Daisy
15. Seshiro/Subaru

Sorry no recent updates but I do got new boots for Selphie.  Yaay!

As far as the prop gun thing is conserned.  Not looking well.  I posted an ad on cosplay.com and got some idiotic responses.  One wanted to make me a whole outfit.  WTF?  I want the gun, not a damn dress.  It might be up to the point where I might have to do what some people suggested on cosplay.com on one topic on the Otakon forums.

Another quick update, a couple of people have been removed from my friends list because of inactive accounts and/or drama I don't want to deal with them.  My livejournal is drama free and I want to keep it that way.  People who like to cause trouble I don't like.  It won't affect anyone that comments on my recent journals.  It only affected unactive accounts that they havent used in ages. None of my brawl friends, friends I met at Otakon (especially at the MGS gathering) are not affected.

Oh and does anyone know where I can get professional photography either at cons or near where I live. (ask nicely if you want to know the idea of where I live)?  

Oh and I'm going to make it a goal to beat Daxter for PSP.  I have had that game for AGES and every time I play it I keep quitting it so I want to beat it with 100 percent perfect.  Now I need to find a guide where there are maps becaue I get so damn lost in the game.

I really feel stupid missing ACEN because of the prop rules and such.  I should have went instead of using my money toward Colossal since the twins are no longer going to be there. *sigh*

Working on human Artemis for the Sailor Moon gathering for Otakon.  Really simple costume or so it seems.  The neck didn't turn out well so I'll probably have to use masking tape to keep it in place around my neck.  Hope the sewing doesn't break on it.

Oh and I need help if anyone can help me with this.  See, Otakon doesn't allow airsoft...AT ALL and I'm sick of carrying a wooden gun over there thats inaccurate my dad made (which looks nothing like a desert eagle) just to please them so does anyone know where I can get a desert eagle model thats not airsoft and solid like either made of resin,cardboard,wood,or pvc really well made.  I would do this myself but I have no clue on how to make props smaller than the palm of my hand.  I need it by Otakon if there is going to be a MGS gathering or just going around the con.  I tried making it out of card board once and I suck compared to featherweight can do. *I suck at smoothing glue*

Might have to drop Din to get Anzu done for Ohayocon and to get Link done for Otakon of next year.  May have to buy the chainmail too if it doesn't get done in time.  I don't know.  I'm almost finished with Artemis.  Just need the damn wig.

1-Ok, ever since my mom's fiance died I have gained 5 pounds because I had to eat out some with my parents and I'm afraid if I gain more, I won't be able to fit into my clothes.  The smallest I can wear now is a size 6.  Is it the foods I'm eating.  All I'm eating is whole grain, fruits and veggies and any dairy I have is low fat/fat free.  I exersize daily for about and hour or maybe more and yet I'm still not losing and weight like I did the week before.  Is is carbs?  Exersize?  What?  I'm afraid to go back on a low carb diet becaue all I ate was once a day (I don't know how to cook) for a salad and it sucked.

2- I feel that I'm not good enough in art and I never have time to draw it so I'm making cosplays instead.  Everytime I go to deviantart, I see better drawings and there is this one that does excellent job with copics and I want to puruse like she did and what CLAMP did (which I always tend to compare my drawings with, I hate digital art for some reason unless its the simpler cute kind).  I want to go back to college and pursue in art but my dad says "Do you really want to major in that" because he thinks I'm not a born artist and some of the professors keeps telling me I should major in something else becaues I get highly upset when someone critiques my artwork yet they treat me nicer on deviantart.  But yet others say I have a good imagination and was good and my own art teacher said so.  What should I do?  

3- College.  I want to go back as previously stated but I want to go back to a univserity and I'm afraid if I goto the local community college, I'll get upset because no one will talk to me or help me with my art.  I know I have friends online to talk to but not in real life.  Any ideas?

Sorry for asking,  this has been bugging me for the past few days.

So, apparently I got an emergency call and it was for my mom but I didn't have time to answer it because I had to go wash the car with my dad.  I usually don't make cosplay stuff til the weekend or after til I workout because I'm usually with my dad helping him out.  Plus, I get crazy when there is no noises in the house.

I found out later on after I got out of the YMCA today that apparently, my mom's boyfriend has died.  (Yes, my parents have been divorced since I was 8)  They don't know his condition.  I never did like him in the first place but I didn't wanted him to die.  This is probably going to slow my progress on cosplay now since my mom is preparing the funeral arrangements along with his son and all that shit.

So far on progress-
Din-Undershirt bra thinge done,about to sew backside of main jumpsuit
Aremis-Still need to start on it
Link-Still need to get back on the chainmail.
Selphie repair- Need to do before Colossalcon.

So yea, don't expect much of me until early mornings when I check for viruses (coughAVGcough), nightime if I'm not sewing.

So, apparently CGL started a thread and thought this other Meryl in the opening pic was me (it was someone else.  Yet they post a pic of of the actual me and I'm told I'm hot.) 

Thats just...weird.

Now they are saying I posted a shooped version of the other Meryl.  What the hell?  I don't even post on cgl and I have nothing against anyone.  (Well, except 4kids and how government runs schools).  I don't even know the girl.

Funny how people are.  I'm confused right now.

edit-They think its someone else now,not me but the rest of the topic is still confusing.  I'm going to go play video games since my fabric is still in the washing machine.

Please internet people.  Stop stalking me on here,deviantart and youtube.  Its scary.  *is screening comments from now on*  Not to be harsh on anyone but sending me PMs over youtube with bad grammar (don't care if your texting or not) saying you want to know me because I said in my profile I never had a bf tells me all you care about is getting a girl for no reason.  I'm not like that.  (I deleted the PM by the way).  Don't worry, friends here are safe.

Speaking of guys, that one dude I liked never sent me a message back on facebook.  God, he must hate me or I don't know how to talk to him.  Saw him with a girl before last I met but I heard rumors they are not getting along.  Probably not.  I fail at life

*sorry for being emo like this, I complain about this a lot because people all around me in my community about this stuff*


As far as progress on Link, havent started back on chainmail.  I'm trying to get Din done out of the wat and possibly human Artemis for Otakon but I may not have time for him.  I don't know if I'll be wearing Din to Otakon or not since there having huge gatherings of Draonball, Avatar, and
possibly Metal Gear.  Plus, I probably won't be recognized because not many people played the game for game boy color.  What I find funny is they released the manga version of it recently in America.  And I still need to get a room.  Stupid father.rrrr...I need a better ride system but my guardians don't like the idea of riding with others I hardly know.  And I only live in a town with very little people which sucks.

And I'm sorry I havent been on AIM.  Its JamSavern00 by the way.

In other news, Im giving up Animal Crosssing so I can beat other games like Little Big Planet.  Unless, someone wants to meet me on that game and give me fruit and Mario related items for my room.  Plus, I hate my neighbors on that game. XD

Dear me,

WHY DO I KEEP FUCKING UP DIN? Third time now.  This time I actually used a pattern.  Problem is, my lining from JoAnn's doesnt' strech.  So, now I have to wait for spandex house to send the right one.  Lets hope it gets done by Otakon *and hope I don't get any fatter*

*end rant*

Oh and I got a photographer that is willing to take photoshoots of me.  Thats good.

But I wish Dad would clean the yard faster.  He hired a young guy.  Nice guy, I talked to him some but he had to go back to work at Giovanni's pizza.

Need to get the rooms for Collosall then Otakon.  Why is my dad so slow?

Anime Punch was okay.  Not much to do really. :/  Mostly centered around anime

Friday-Arrived around 5ish and went into Yamcha costume.  Fooled around.  Went to who's line.  Saw Sam in her Sailor Jupiter outfit and met her friends that hung out with her and hung out with her til I got sleepy.

Saturday-Premiered my new cosplay outfit.  Fuu from Samurai Champloo.  Some people did recognize it, some didn't.  Went to get judged around 1ish.  Hung out with Sam pretty much all day in artist alley,dealers room,etc til the masquerade.  Showed off my costume on the walk on.  And..I WON AN AWARD!  (Sunflower Samurai Award).  Got a nice price, a dvd boxsett of Magical Girl Nanoha.  Took off costume and hung around in the bar with Sam's friends, Sam, her husband.  Patrick Seitz (George in Paradize Kiss, Ichigo's Dad in Bleach, and the Linch King in Wow) remembered me and started talking to me and us.  Cool guy.  Offered us drinks too.  *I don't drink though.  The only thing I had at the bar was Pineapple Juice*.  Friends were amazed when they found out that he was the voice of the Lynch King in World of Warcraft.  We went to the rave some but left.  It sucked, really.

Sunday- Had to leave early.  No costume that day.

Overall okay.

Other review.
Good-
Location
Staff-Nicest I have seen.
Hotel Staff-Nice as well. We even got a free cookie for our rooms
Gaming room had a lot to offer. Especially import games
Video rooms had good anime. Enjoyed Patlabor
Main events-Saw whos line. Great as usual.


Okay-
Dealers room had a good selecion but I could always use more like videogame stuff and imported manga
Panels-I really didn't attend any (didn't see anything interesting) but you could always do more panels on cosplaying and other obscure stuff

Bad-
Location of dealers room in a tent. Saw some stuff knocked down due to wind. I heard rumors many said they woudn't resturn unless it wasn't in a tent.

con goers need better manners- There was a giant party Friday night and they didn't shut up til 2 am. We reported this but they still woudn't shut up. Also, some kids under 21 were drinking.

hug me signs-BAN THEM! I simply told people no when I didn't need a hug and they didn't but there were only two times when people hugged me WITHOUT my permission. I told one Kingdom Hearts cosplayer I didn't needed a hug and she hugged me anyway when I told her not to. I didn't remember her face because she ran away giggling or I would have reported her (or any. She could have ruined my costume.


Oh, and here is a pic of my Fuu from Samurai Champloo.-


Taken by amyloveyou87 on the AP fourms.

video-
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UcYBo5AODnU&feature=related

-I'm around the 8:40 area on the walk on


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7rgSAnW1-8c&feature=related

-around the 7:40 area is where they announce me.

You will have to copy and paste the videos because I'm too lazy to actually link it.

I'll post more on Anime Punch later but right now I have been upset since I left the con for various reaosns.  If you don't want to read a whiny post, head somewhere else.







Anyway, my reason I want to post is because I feel like I can't seem to get my feelings out to anyone and I'm starting to feel left out at cons and IRL.   Many of you already know of my condition which I have a hard time communicationg People at Anime Punch kept asking why I don't talk so much as compared to online.  Simple- I'm too afraid too and I suck at conversations..  My friend also said I needed to be outgoing some but I can't.  I'm afraid to go outgoing because then I'm afraid I'll turn into a loudmouth drunk like some peole I know.  No matter how hard I try, (plus, I don't know what really outgoing means)  I can't start up a conversation and make friends IRL.  At Anime Punch, people seemed to talk to me more than at A and G.  I don't know why but it happended.  I just wish I could talk to people and keep friends but I can't because I'm so shy.

What also troubles me is that everyone else has a lover except me.  Everytime I try to start a relationship with a they just end up being retarted,selfishmean,gay,bodytype, or alredy taken.  

Example-
There is this guy I have talken to at a couple of conventions but not matter what I can't seem to respond to him first.  I get nervous when I see this person and I just can't talk to him and his friends.  And I probably won't see him and his friends again til who knows.  My friends want me to choose I guy I like no matter what they look.  But I want a guy that looks nice and is smart, not someone who looks awful in every shape and form with other bad habits.  And I'm afraid to talk to people.  I feel like I'll never have any friends except ones online.  Online friends are okay too but I wish I had some to go to nearby for advice.

Does anyone know what to do?


Too tired now, going to bed.

For those wandering, I'll be at Anime Punch this weekend.  I'll probably be either Selphie or Yamcha Friday, and my secret cosplay will debut Saturday.  I wont be there Sunday because I'll have to leave early.

Oh and some good news.  I'm going to be able to do more stuff/get more help now since my dad got a letter saying he has been approved.  Not saying who but I'll be able to get out more often and actually DO THINGS!

Oh, and here are the photos I took at A and G Ohio.  Sorry its late.  I didn't take that many (not many good cosplays).

http://s291.photobucket.com/albums/ll285/MynameisnotDavid/a%20and%20g%20ohio/


Oh, and snow, I mailed your bracelet.  It should be arriving soon.

No, I'm not quitting going to anime conventions.  You should have read the tags in the entry post.  Really easy to find.  My parents are fine with me with going to anime conventions but not going to every single one of them since I don't have much money.  I usually go the closer ones save up to two three big ones.  Not going to ACEN though because no one talked to me or recognized my costume.  Plus, the prop restriction rule and airsoft rule (can carry a wooden one my dad made for my Meryl Silverburgh but I rather not).  Maybe 2010 if I don't like how Colossalcon runs.

However I do have some sad news that happended on April Fools.  My dog, Lisa, died.  My dad is currently burrying her right now and I coudn't stand looking at the dead body when he showed it to me.  She was bleeding from the jaw and her face got damaged and it looked nasty.  It made me too sad to look at it.

I still got the daughter, Mitzi, still but she all preppy and smiling.  I don't think she realizes her mom just died even though we tried to tell her.

Well, I don't have much to say but I'll see you guys at Anime Punch if youre going.  I don't know what to wear Friday since most of my cosplays are video games, too big on me, or need drastic repairs. (coughPhoenixWrightYamchacough).  Wish I had more anime ones so they won't form an attention saying "YOURE COSPLAYING VIDEO GAMES. THIS IS AN ANIME CON".  Saturday I'll have an anime cosplay done but my future one would be Julia from Cowboy Bebop I want to to would involve pvc or pleather.  I can't decide which fabric to use since it looks shiny in reference pics.  Too bad she only appears in like flashbacks and the last two episodes but I like the character.  That and a Re-Cutey Honey cosplay, one of the Sailor Soldiers,Vash, Wolfwood (don't know how to do the cross though) or Haruko from FLCL.  I don't know if I have the body though.  I don't want people to think I'm fat.  Other than that I mostly want to cosplay video games like Edgeworth,MGS4 Meryl, Sneaksuit Meryl Brawl Peach, Brawl Marth, Brawl Ike Twin Snakes Solid Snake (wouldn't require facial hair and I refuse to do a cosplay with facial hair!) Link TP, Ordon Village Link and lots more I can't think of the top of my head

If anyone wants to join me or cosplay with me just tell me in this journal or PM.  I have plenty of ideas but I haven't watched and recent anime except maybe the first few episodes of Code Geass and Gurren Laguann (would love to do Yoko but once again, I'm not porportioned like her *aka I don't have her boobs*).

Due to problems with my family, I won't be able to make it to any anime conventions this year.

I'm sorry.  I hate it too.

For those wanting to know what they look like (sorry if picture is really crappy, I have a crappy camera).





If you want the bracelets that I took pictures of, I can send one of them or both or make you a brand new one in a different color.

If you do buy one and it ends up too big or too small, I can readjust it for free.  Either meet me at a con or you can send it right back.

I prefer cash or checks but if you can only do paypal, thats fine too.


I also have on sale some anime

Tokyo Bablyon dvd-$10 (only watched once)
FullMetal Alcemist dvds (ask to see which volumes I have) $15 each (never been watched)
Plesae Twins vols 1-4- $15 each or 60 for all 4 plus cd soundtrack.

Since I want to make MGS4 Meryl and its gonna cost me money, I have decided to sell some of my stuff.  I don't have any pics yet but here is what I'm willing to sell

Since I can't make it to ACEN, I'm selling my Acen badges.  I'm selling them for 40, right now, the current price is 50 plus 1.99 to get it mailed
ACEN badges so youre actually getting a good bargain!

anime-
Tokyo Babylon-$10 (only been watched once, excellent condition)
FullMetal Alchemist dvd (PM me if youre looking for a certain volume or want the special edition ones with the cds)-15 each (never been watched)
Please Twins- 15 dollars for each or 60 for all 4 volumes plus cd.  Only wached once.

I also make chainmail bracelets for $20 if you want one of those.  Any color you want.  May take awhile since I need to reorder some supplies.

Please tell your friends about this too!

edit-Since people want to know what the chainmail braclets look like, I took a quick photo of it but my camera is really bad so I apologize.

Due to going downhill and stuff I don't agree with, I probably won't be going to ACEN this year.  No one didn't talk to me last year when I was there or hung out with me.  Plus, I don't like the prop rules.  Can't have airsoft (thanks a lot stupid congoers), and can't have a prop that is no bigger than three feet which I need for my Selphie.  A Final Fantasy character without a prop is useless.  Unless I had a Zelda cosplay done, I would have went but I don't

Plus, my dad doesn't like me driving toward Chicago.  He gets scared because of all the crime that went during the 1930s.  Dumb fucktard.  I hate him.  Vietnam Veteran my ass.  Keeps whining about to to hang out with gay people and how I might get AIDS or HIV from them.  HOW THE HELL AM I GOING TO GET AIDS OR HIV IF I DON'T PLAN ON KISSING OR HAVING ANY SEX OR ANY KIND OF SEXUAL RELATION?  Plus, there gay.  I have nothing against gay people by the way.  Sorry if I sound like I do.  I think people should live their life the way they want to.  What you do in bed is no one else's buisness. 

I'll probably go back in 2010 though

Instead I'll be heading toward Collosssalcon instead, hopefully.  Hopefully, I'll get to meet Koi and Wulf.

Ok, enough bitching.  I'll talk about something else now...

I love Donkey Kong Country.  That is like my favorite game of all time for the SNES.  Brings so many memories.  I remember when me and my cousins used to play it to death.  I felt that it was a hard game but when I play it now it isn't so difficult.  However, I really didn't like DK64 because they didn't have Dixie Kong in there and they had her annoying sister.  I never did like her.  And the voice acting sucked for the video game compared to the tv series.  I loved the tv series as well and probably one of the few that did.  I remember when it aired on Fox and ABC Family and remember watching it.  I remember the songs they sung in episodes too.  They were catchy tunes.  Ah, childhood memories.  

Random fact about the tv seires-
1-It was very big in Japan.  They even had official merchandice for it
2- The voice actor for Donkey Kong in Japanese was also the voice actor for Spike Spiegel in Cowboy Bebop which I find funny since the US version he has a somewhat high pitched voice. 
3-Diddy's Kong Japanese VA is voiced by a woman where in America is voiced by a guy. 

How come Japanese never cast well with American shows but they do well for their own shows?  They did that with Daxter's VA (who I think is voiced by Edward Elric's Japanese VA).  I find that weird because the Japanese version of Daxter isn't as funny as the English version.  Then again, we can't cast well with Japanese anime or video games sometimes.  I may not be correct on this.  (I do watch subbed anime by the way for those interested)

Now if only they release the damn show on dvd like they did with Mario Bros.  That and Megas XLR.  DO IT NAOW!

Was...hmmm..an okay con.  Probably can't go back next year due to my money will be going to Ohayo next year.

Panels were okay.  I attended three or four out of boredom that were ran on Saturday (one Sunday).  The only one that seemed to help was the cosplay panel on Sunday.  Not really great.

Dealers room could have been better but at least they had food vendors.  I only bought a box of pocky and a MGS Raiden action figure

Hoboken (masquerade) was not what I expected.  Didn't win anything for Meryl because they didn't have a found item category. :/  I was originally asked to judge the competion but I had to decline because my insomnia sleep habits but I ended up going.  I feel stupid for decling.  That and money issues.  I can only go to a con once every two months unlike everyone else I know. :/

I talked to some people but usually, I dont talk much because a-too shy b-Can't think of any topics.  I'm very sorry if I sounded rude or nervous if you did see me there.  Please try to say hi or keep me talking if you ever meet me at a con.

I mostly ran around in the lobby and sat. *was tired*

Rave was..okay...but I left early becaue I was tired.

Missed the con drama panel because I was tired and forgot it was going on. *headdesk*

I didn't arrive til Friday because my ride wanted to do laundry at the last minute.  I don't like saying who is my ride to cons because its too embarassing.  I have medical needs and I need someone nearby me if if I have a panic attack, get nervous,etc or if some random con goer tries to stalk me or something.  (There was a crossdresser/transvestite following me at the con late Saturday from what my ride said and wasn't pleased).  Trust me, its not pretty when I have panic attacks.  I really need a boyfriend or get married. :(  Too bad I'm stuck in Kentucky with NOTHING.


God I suck.